Sunday, March 7, 2010


Well Friday night Lane was working at the firestation and me at home with nothing to do decided to just lay in bed and watch t.v. As I flipped through the stations I saw a show about multiples. For some reason I thought this would be something good to watch, needless to say not such a great choice. It totally freaked me out and I just layed in bed and cried for 2 hours. I couldn't get ahold of Lane at the station and didn't know who else to call, so I just kept torturing myself and watched this stupid show. As I was laying there I was like what have I gotten myself into. I don't know how to raise a baby let alone 2!!! I don't know how hot to make the bottle, how to give a bath or any of that good stuff and it freaked me out more and more. Then I was watching the c-section birth and oh my word there was sooo much blood. I see why they put that curtain up so you can't see what is going on down there and I can't imagine going through that, but in a few short months that will be me. Finally about 10:30 Lane called and talked to me and calmed me down enough where I just fell asleep. I woke up the next day and realized if all these young people can do it so can I. I have amazing friends and family that will help me out along the way with all my ridiculous questions and problems. Lane even took Sunday off of work to be with me. I can't say enough how lucky I am. So meltdown is over with for now and we will see what the next week brings us. 17 weeks......


  1. haha!! Sorry to laugh, trust me, I've been there. The self tourture part is hillarious though. Just CLICK the TV OFF :) haha! I almost passed out in our Lamaze class when they showed all 3 degree's of episiotimys. Then I got in the car and started bawling...and then before my induction...meltdown, so scarrrred. BUT, you'll be all druged sweetheart and won't feel a thing :) YOU CAN DO IT!

  2. I love you! I tried to call you that night but you didnt answer. You can deff do it! I know all aabout it and will help you :))) I can't wait to see you and that shirt looks real cute!

    Oh ps..... saw a couple of c sections when i did my surgery rotation... whoooaaa... veryyyy gross

  3. Sounds like something I would do!!! You'll do wonderful!!! One day at a time... sometimes I should take my own advice ;)

  4. Here's the truth - NONE OF US know what we're doing! Haha- don't be scared. Seriously, the definition of "motherhood" should be "flying by the seat of your pants." I always call Avalon my little guinea pig since our days are always trial and error with everything. :)

    You will be a great mommy, and you're right - you'll have so many people chomping at the bit to help you, you won't know what to do with yourself! Also, God will never give you more than you can handle :)